The Big Fat Positive
Good Morning and Happy Tuesday!
Today I thought I’d rewind to the beginning of my pregnancy. I’m sure you’ve all read the tall tales about how women normally get a “feeling” and know they are pregnant. This was actually the case with me. Well technically my mom knew before I did, but I still had those feelings as well.
I found out pretty early, I mean if I date back it would put me at 3 weeks pregnant, which is kind of impossible, but we will just say I found out the earliest you possibly can! Tony and I were in NYC and I felt off, like something wasn’t right. I tested and it was negative, but I wasn’t convinced. I can remember staring at the ceiling in the hotel room the night I tested in disbelief. I knew something was going on, and I felt waves of disappointment because was I completely wrong here? Turns out I wasn’t, I’m a trust your gut type of person.
Funny enough, I sent my mom this picture the night I took that test and she later told me when she looked at it I had a certain gleam in my eye. She knew I was pregnant too. I’m a firm believer in that kind of stuff.
I waited another two days to test in the morning on a day I was headed into work late around 11am to work a partial shift. I got up first thing, took a test, and while waiting for the “5 minute mark” I actually FELL ASLEEP! I opened my eyes to my alarm and thought “crap, did I fall asleep?”, sprinting in to the bathroom to see the faintest line. It was faint, but there was no mistaking there was a line where there wasn’t before. I cried hysterically, looking over in the bed to see Phoebe and Hazel tilting their heads. Tony was working already, he worked into the wee hours of the morning and then I had to work again the next day, which was Saturday. Then he was called into work that night as I was coming home. Of course we kept missing one another! Let me tell you it was the longest two days of my life holding that secret! I wanted to tell him right away. I wanted to call, text, something! But there’s no way you can tell that kind of news without being in person. It was worth the wait though 🙂
I’m sure you’re wanting to know “how I told’, but as I said in Fridays post, I don’t plan on sharing everything and want to keep that just between Tony and I.
We told our parents right away, and like I said my mom already knew before I even told her. The rest of our family had to wait until after the first trimester. It was a little hard not shouting it from the rooftops, especially at Christmas time, but we wanted to wait until my first trimester sonogram and genetic testing at 13 weeks. I respect anyone who tells before that, because it is indeed the most exciting news to share! However, if you remember correctly I work in OB (labor and delivery to be exact) and I felt uncomfortable sharing it before I knew everything was A-Okay!
My biggest concern in the very early stages (besides making it through the early stages without extreme anxiety and worry) was the pups.
“You’re getting us a human!? WHAT?”
I kept thinking…how was this going to go!? Especially my Phoebs. Phoebe was my fur child from day 1. Hazel is as well, but Phoebe has a bit of an attachment to me that could be described as obsessive. It’s my own fault, because I’ve treated her like a baby. My worry turned into panic, confusion, and thoughts of how to handle some of her behaviors. We have had quite a few talks. And by a few, I mean I talk to both girls every single day about being big sisters! Some people may think it’s silly, but I know they understand, and they love going in the nursery to check out where their future best friend will sleep 🙂
As time passed, I became less obsessed about it and more at ease dealing with the situation as it arises. I’m in a good place now that Phoebe will love baby girl like she loves me. She just has to learn how to share! Hazel I know will be a little angel and so curious to see the baby, mamas little helper!
So that’s the beginning of our story! I have more to tell and I hope you meet me back here.
love this! Mamas intuition is the best! It will carry you through the rest of your sweet girls life. So happy for you!
Thank you Christi! I guess sometimes we just know, huh? 😉
I just KNEW what you were going to say when you told me! ❤️❤️