When I Grow Up
As a child you are probably asked this question over and over by people older than you. What do you want to be when you grow up? I didn’t exactly know as a child. All I knew was that I wanted to go to college and learn. And when I say this I mean it. I knew from the age of FIVE that I wanted to go to college.
I was always the kid that played school after school, played library, and did the extra credit when I already had an A. Some would call this overachieving, and it followed me into my adult life.
After college and grad school I was finally working as a professional, but the question still remained.. what did I want to be when I grow up? Well I WAS grown up, and I had a job most 26 year olds never thought possible at such a young age. Something was still missing.
So then I adopted the fit life. Fitness had always been in and out of my life in different ways, but somehow it always fizzled out when things got too hectic. And magically when I started this blog, I realized fitness is WHO I AM. I never wanted to let it go because then my blog would be let go, and that is also who I am.
When I think about the question now, “what do you want to be when you grow up”, it has nothing to do with my occupation. I want to be the girl that inspired others. I want to be the person who is happy doing what she loves. I want to ENJOY my time lifting with the love of my life. I want to laugh, write, and spread joy.
So where is all this coming from? The past few days I was in a funk. I woke up this morning and laid in bed, staring at the ceiling for an hour, listening to Phoebe outside the door squeaking her toy and Tony making his morning coffee. As silly as it sounds, those sounds were something I had secretly wished to hear for years. Someone just on the other side of the door who I adored more than life itself. Someone that I had an instant connection with that I couldn’t explain. The person who loves me without a stitch of makeup on, wet hair rolled up in a towel on top of my head, with food stains on my overly sized pajama shirt. The “one” I kept hearing about but didn’t think existed.
While I was laying there I thought to myself, time to turn off this “so-called funk”. As soon as my feet hit the carpet, I let it all go. Sometimes we all just have minor ups and downs in life. The point is when there’s a down, there is always a way back up. I am so grateful Tony is my up.
If you find yourself in a funk, whether big or small, YOU are in control. The easiest thing to do is just turn it off. Flip that switch and go live your life. As I go on to conquer a new day, I leave the funk behind me and endless possibilities in front.
But first, coffee 😉
XOXO With a Cherry On Top,
This was JUST the post I needed to read today! The past few weeks I have SO been struggling with who I want to be. I’m in that going to college yet doubting my life decisions and major age and have really been in a funk because of it. I have NO idea what I really want to do with my life and I have been dwelling on it a little too much lately…but like you said I am in control! I can easily conquer today, tomorrow, and the next day! Life will work itself out 🙂 So thank you for that little reminder. I definitely needed it!
Love this post – and glad you found your “UP”…..my hubby is mine – he’s my workout partner, he got me hooked – he can always turn my day around. btw…your computer looks like mine – post-it’s ….. I canNOT live without them!!!!
haha thank goodness for post its huh!?